It’s been nice, I've had a few friends ask me if I've been blogging and as you can tell.... I haven't. My last post was about keeping the "good stuff" in my life and yet I've put these posts on the very bottom of the list. Not good.

I took a course on the 7 habits of highly effective people this week and though I thought I was effective it turns out I really haven't been that effective at all. It was quite an eye opener. My wellness journey is not just about loosing weight it's about becoming a better me. What that looks like in the end I'm not sure but so far I'm moving forward and that's the best thing.

So day 41... week 7 starts tomorrow. I've been really good.... and really bad over the last 41 days. The good far outweighs the bad and as I promised myself when I started I won't beat myself up for the bad... but I will acknowledge it and move on. That's a hard one for me. I love guilt and guilt loves me. I live in the should've, could've, would've world. I certainly can't move forward if I'm just focusing on what I should or could have done differently. Instead I'm working towards the gonna, wanna, happen world. I like it better.

Put first things first, big rocks, quadrant 2 are all really good things I got from the 7 habits but ultimately it comes down to wanting to be better. To improve on what I am today. I didn't start at the bottom and I can't change everything over night, but I can start with the little things such as this blog. I believe in me. I'm going to be better, I want to share my story, I want to be well and feel great and I'm going to make it happen one moment, day, week at a time and just keep on keepin on...